we need a resolution..
2004-03-05 at 8:34 a.m.
oh no it happened again.i feel shitty like the past hundred times he's made me felt.sometimes i can be an understanding girlfriend but if u treat me like i'm some unimportant thing well then i jus hafto say tt patience has its limits.i'm sick of this.i'm always the sad one,pinning over him..letting him insensitively ignore me like a piece of dirt.i've tried so many times to be strong & just ignore shitty parts of our rship..but den it bcomez like a cycle..he'll be nice & good & then he gets all shitty & ignorant.how long can i tolerate this..he might think i'm being too sensitive but sometimes,well most of the times,i'm always left with the thought of whether he loves me..coz it really doesnt seem like he does..he hasnt called me for almost a week..and he always expects me to be the one who has to look for him or else i prolly wont hear frm him for a month or so.of coz tt hasnt happened.i'm always the one who cares too much & runs to the phone to dial his pathetic number in attempt to be cheered up by talking to him.he doesnt give a flying fuck whether we do talk or not..the other night i waited coz he promised to call..and well,he didnt..the next day he said "sorry ah i was tired"...i put so much into dis rship..and he seems so careless & tired...times like these,when i say i love him i fucking feel like i'm just assuring myself...